I know I am a broken record but seriously, who stole June? I know they say that as you get older the years just blur into one but come on!!!! What worries me more than the fact that Christmas is basically just around corner is that my babies are growing up before my very eyes! I have been capturing monthly photos for the past 18 months now and I look back at the first few I took and cannot believe how much they have both changed!! I mean at least I have taken the photos but I want time to slow down, for them to be my babies for a little bit longer.
Mr F and I often talk about what retirement will be like, what we will do when the girls are all grown and have lives of their own (sob!). With my parents splitting up pretty much as soon as my sister moved out, he worries that we won’t know what to do without them around. Thing is, we were best friends before kids, he is still very much my very best friend now and so I hope that in 30 years time we will still be best friends. But as much as I know we will be fine, I want time to slow right down and for us to have our children running around us, keeping us busy, for as long as possible.
This month has been a tough one on my little family and has brought tension to us all. I’ll hold my hands up right now and say it has mainly been my fault – I am massively hormonal and so everyone else has had to tread on eggshells. I am not the best person to be around right now as I am surviving on very little sleep and am in pain quite a lot of the time and I feel incredibly guilty. Guilty that they have to be dealing with that at all but also guilty because I want to be making the most of these last few months as a family of 4.
Thankfully I have some incredible friends who rally around me during the week, taking G back and forth from school. This has meant I am able to do more at the weekends as my body has time to recover. This weekend we are off to CBeebies Land and it will probably kill me but I have to make the effort, I want to make the effort. There is so little time left before baby boy arrives and I want the girls to have a fun summer, filled with happy mummy memories.
These photos were taken on a morning out to pick strawberries, they aren’t the best but to be honest we haven’t been out as a family of 4 very much so the opportunities are few and far between. When I was looking through them I could have sworn I took more than two of all four of us but it seems not!
I am going to take my camera to CBeebies Land and hopefully some kind soul will take some photos of us, otherwise Mr F has a week off at the end of July and we will be going to the beach most days – that is if the weather plays ball!! Where is that sunshine??