We met almost 14 years ago now and have been best friends for most of that time – in a few more years I will have known you for more years than not and that seems crazy. But then I don’t really remember a time when you weren’t there, actually I don’t want to think about it for too long as life has just been so much better with you around.
When we first knew each other, it was just the two of us, we did what we pleased and our days were our own. I loved you and you loved me and that was all that mattered. I think I took you for granted back then, I just thought it was always going to be just us I guess. Not that we didn’t want kids but it all seemed so far in the future didn’t it? Little did we know that our first little monkey would arrive a year after our wedding day.
I’ve always loved you, but on that morning when you held our precious little daughter in your arms for the very first time, I loved you even more. They say having a child makes your heart grow, that you love that baby more than anything in the world. What they don’t tell you is how much you will love your partner – seeing that love through their eyes.
Seeing how much you loved her, right there in that moment, made me love you more than I ever thought possible.
We don’t spend as much time together, just us, anymore. I don’t think you ever realise that it is happening, that your relationship has changed over time. Days and weeks blur into one mass of kids parties, family visits and household chores. Those evenings once spent cuddling on the sofa after a day at work are spent sitting side by side on the sofa in a zombie daze. I know you are there and you me, but we are just too tired to do anything but sit and stare at a screen. But I still love you, I hope you know that.
There are moments, like this one here, where I see you with our girls and remember how much I love you. Not that I forget as such, but sometimes it just hits me like a tonne of bricks. To see you with them, your little princesses, the apples of your eye, melts my heart every time. They don’t know how lucky they are to have you as their dad, a father who cares and enjoys their company. They probably take you for granted, not realising how lucky they are, but I will teach them. What I do know is that they love you more than anything and I cannot wait to see how that relationship will grow over the years.
With another little one on the way I know I will feel that rush of love again, when I see you hold your little boy for the first time. It will take me right back to that day when you first became a daddy, the day our lives changed forever. Life changed for the better that day didn’t it? It is certainly different to those early carefree days but I wouldn’t change it for anything.
I love you and you love me and we both love our girls. That is still all that matters.