Just over 9 years ago I completed my teacher training and got my first teaching job, I was fresh faced and ready to work, not knowing the hardships that lay ahead. I had chosen teaching as a profession as I loved children and wanted to be the one to nourish their young minds. Little did I know that the profession was not really about teaching, but about paperwork and politics in the staffroom. I soon realised what the job involved and over the next 6 years, working under one of the worst heads imaginable, I left teaching feeling broken.
Teaching wasn’t what I thought it would be and I was then left with no job at all. Having two young children it suited me to stay at home. I am fortunate enough that Mr F has been able to support my career break for the last four years but there comes a point when the scrimping and scraping becomes too tough. Last year I signed up for supply teaching and realised that not all teaching jobs are as bad as the one I endured for 6 years. However, the paperwork still remains- not for me as a supply but I can see the stress in the eyes of the teachers in every school I visit. I don’t want that in my life.
Today I went to a school and while I was sitting marking the books from the morning’s work I realised I am not committed to teaching anymore. I don’t get the same thrill as I once did when I teach a child something new. I went back to supply as I felt as though it was my only option, the only thing I was good at. But it is not my passion, not anymore.
So where does it leave me?
Blogging is my passion, it brings me joy every single day. When I open up my laptop I enter my own little world, one that I am completely in control of. I have creative license and I am able to use that in any way I wish. I do not have to answer to anyone, be made to feel small or inadequate.
I am free.
I am so blessed that this blog brings in an income, one that means I can treat my girls to days out or go out for dinner with Mr F when we fancy it. I never started out intending to make blogging a career, I just wanted to share my experiences with others. I wanted to highlight the difficulties faced with allergies, to spread the word about Hypoglycemia and I have done that and much much more.
I am inspired every single day by so many talented friends in the blogging world and I am constantly wanting to improve- something that I never felt possible as a teacher. My blogging style has changed over the months but I really feel happy with where I am right now. Of course I will probably change again in the future as my tastes change and my experience grows but for now I will write about my day to day life, my family and my thoughts as a mum of two young girls.
For the first time in a long time I am excited by my job. I am my own boss and I love it!