I haven’t written a blogging post in a while as I am aware that many of my readers aren’t particularly interested in blogging related things and probably roll their eyes at half of it. But I need to get something off my chest, something that has been brewing for a while and is very suddenly bubbling over today.
I know I have a newborn baby (well not so newborn now…) and tiredness is pretty much standard these days but I am tired of the noise. I am tired of having to shout above the ever escalating noise in the blogging world, just to get a handful of comments or likes or RTs or whatever. I am just so tired of it all.
Every other day I will see someone new entering the already overpopulated world of blogging and it just adds to the noise. I am a fine one to talk as I only started 3 years ago – nothing compared to some of the longer serving bloggers out there, but still I feel the strain as they probably felt as my ‘generation’ came along.
Every day I have certain things that I ‘must’ do to keep up with everyone else. I comment on IG posts, like as many as I can, reply to tweets, RT where I can, reply to FB comments, search for more things to share, the list goes on…. and I haven’t even mentioned the writing of actual posts, the photography, the editing… oh and Pinterest. I could spend all day promoting except I have 3 children to look after and one very patient husband to neglect, again. And what for?
I get a great amount of traffic every day, thank you Pinterest!! But what about a readership? How is anyone supposed to find you when there are 10 thousand other bloggers clambering for their attention? Facebook and Instagram have their algorithms which make it near on impossible to reach real people, so who are we writing for?
Video is where it is at right now, I absolutely adore making videos of my little family but just as it is so difficult to break FB algorithms it also feels like it is impossible to get anywhere on YouTube. So again I ask myself is there any point in trying?
The thing is, it is so easy to get bogged down by it all, to wonder if there is any point and I guess you just have to ask yourself whether you actually enjoy it. Sitting here right now I know that I love it as here I am writing this. If I didn’t love writing, if I didn’t love my blog I would have just grumbled about it and shut my laptop. But no, I am here multitasking sending off invoices, editing photos and writing this post as a therapeutic end to my day.
So yes today was a bad day, I may have felt like quitting altogether but I won’t, I can’t. I write for me, for my friends and for my loyal readers and I will carry on doing it as it is just a part of who I am now. It is more than a job to me, it is a real passion and one that I hope I will be able to carry on for many years to come.
But there is still the noise, so much noise from everyone else and I am just not sure I have the voice to break through it all. I want to be heard but as in real life, if you shout you will lose your voice and I feel like I have been losing mine. I don’t want to be forgotten but I don’t want to feel the constant pressure to keep up any more. So I am going to go below the noise, carry on doing what I love to do and let the others do their shouting for a while.